you are like SNOW, it's cold and cruel to begin with, but it's somehow BEAUTIFUL, and you miss it when it's not there. and if you hold it in your hands close enough and long enough, it CHANGES, it melts.
HIS SMILE GREW, and he had to stop for a split-moment to marvel that, for the firs time in a MILLENNIUM, he had someone he figured was a friend. Not for anything other than the fact that she was wicked and cut through the monotony of the day all-too easily. “Someone like you,” he repeated. “Sheltered. British. Entirely inexperienced in the way of the world beyond your doorstep.” he nodded severely for a moment before reaching a hand over the popcorn bowl. “You are learning,” he said. “We’ll try the film again when you’ve settled more into life outside the bubble.” THE BUBBLE: his term for the magical community of the BRITISH ISLE who, save for the few other communities so isolated they’d become sovereign, kept to themselves. Someone as sharp as Darcy deserved to be far OUT of that bubble; he wondered how she’d gone so long without being suffocated by the smallness of her own world. Kol paused at her words, remembering the offer he hadn’t yet given her. “I’ve got a lock on almost any healing magic,” he said, tone teetering away from the casualness with which he’d hoped to continue on, as though he was introducing the film he’d just put in. “I’ve studied more and written MORE than anyone you’re going to meet here or anywhere else. ––What I’m meaning to say, is,” He turned from the screen, picking up a piece of popcorn. Casual. “I know a thing or two about generational curses. More than a thing or two, in fact. I dedicated almost a century to them. ––I’m a bit older than I look. If you want to save the ponce, I’m a good bet.”
she had to admit, when kol smiled, it was honestly like she was looking at some kind of an ANGEL. he almost seemed like a veela, so nice & pleasing to look at out the outside, but when he is angry, he is just ugly. ❛ you should smile way more often, mikaelson. you have quite the pearls. ❜ a small laugh escaped her lips, making her look back towards her hands, were were currently on her lap. ❛ a CENTURY? i love an older man. ❜ it was a joke though, & the smile that was present on her features could show it. she actually liked spending her time with kol, because she didn’t think that anyone understood her as much as this man did. she saw appeal in him, but if she wasn’t married, she would still feel this way about him–– that he was special. special in the way of how she is awful at making friends, but now she finally has one, & it’s AMAZING. ❛ how about this, you can teach me how to use stuff without wands, & i can teach you how to use a broom! i can give you my husbands, & we can use it together. it’s a nimbus 2016, brand new. ❜ she mentioned to him, but she knew that he was probably going to mention how she needed to drop it, but that is just something that she CAN’T, not even for a second. ❛ i hope that you understand how happy i am that you are helping me, i don’t think i would have ever gotten along without you. i would have shown up at a coven meeting with my wand, & they probably would have attacked me or something. ❜ she shrugged, looking back up to meet his blue eyes. just her luck that she ran into someone that has been doing magic for longer than she has, someone who isn’t her father. ❛ or maybe i can take you to diagon alley & get you a wand of yourself, i’m sure you’d make a GREAT addition to hogwarts, even if you’d probably be the worst. ❜
he stared at him, & he wanted to glare, but he just couldn’t. the smile that was on cedric’s face was just too NICE, & it just wasn’t something that draco could be mad at, for once. he looked at him & he shook his head gently, crossing his arms over his chest. ❛ if you are just going to BULLY me, then you can leave, because i don’t have time for this. ❜ he didn’t even know where that came from, but, draco didn’t mind it. he was currently working on more than enough school work, just trying to do everything in his power to get his grades up before the exams, & that’s when cedric decided to show up. ❛ if i didn’t TOLERATE you so much, then you would be dead by now, i hope you know that diggory. ❜ he rolled his eyes, looking up over at him before he raised an eyebrow. ❛ also, who said that i belonged to YOU? ❜
❛ i will SPIT in your mouth if you push me off my broom today. ❜ out of nowhere, darcy started to speak. she had been with cedric, & it hit here that there was a match–– TODAY. quidditch had been the last thing on her mind, but, she remembers as soon as she sees cedric. they were playing against hufflepuff today, & she knew that cedric was good, she just never really knew how good. ❛ i mean, obviously your daddy will be DISAPPOINTED if you lose, no one more than yourself of course. ❜ she shrugged, stopping to stand in front of him as she just had to look up, since he was a solid nine inches taller than her. ❛ once again, you really need to stop being such a little bitch sometimes. you have so much more to offer as a person, & you make it seem like winning things & being the best is all you are. it’s a REAL turn off. ❜ she said to him, rolling her eyes for a moment. although she tended to do those things, it just seemed okay for her to do it, but not for cedric. he had way more to offer than she did, & he needed to see it. ❛ besides, you’re a lot cuter when you’re not dead tired&unhappy. ❜
❛ —as long as it’s your choice . ❜ hans has never been one for idle chats , unfortunately , despite it being one of the many exceptional skills he’s to master as a prince . of course , if this were a ball and draco were some royalty or another that he’s to entertain to keep things polite , this conversation could go anywhere ( hans hates disappointing father ) alas , the muggle prince rarely pretends when he’s at hogwarts . so it’s often people would find themselves running out of topic with hans . usually , that would motivate them to walk away rather than to stick around . most times , hans would like nothing better .
❛ my nephews and nieces are different . i nurse them when they were newborn . the moment they’re able to speak , the tutors would educate them , and their parents — my brothers and in-laws — would cut off their ties with me . by the time i’m able to see them again , they would hate my gut . ❜ he takes a drink , noting how he sounds depressingly pathetic . and here people thought one would enjoy being surrounded by a large family who happens to be rich . please . ❛ you’re right , of course . about being a better parental figure . but you don’t understand , draco . if i were to marry — if — then it would be on my father’s term . that child — that child would not be mine . not completely . he or she would be another shadow , another westergärd that’re to follow the westergärd way . what if he or she grew up becoming the exact person i wouldn’t want them to be , but that’s who they are anyway , because that’s what westergärds are supposed to become. ❜
he starts to look at himself . ❛ we are proper , cunning , brutish if circumstances urges us to . but we’re just puppets . another generation to try and compete with the last . and what if my child falls short ? would i be blamed ? would my child and i have to be punished ? worse yet , would i have to punish my own offspring ? ❜ surely draco could understand , couldn’t he ? his body is not his own too . it belonged to the malfoy name , to the dark lord . and would he ever chance the opportunity of his own child being born the same way ? with the same pressure and expectation and manipulation ? hans grits his teeth . ❛ i wouldn’t dream bringing a child of mine to such a life . i would never hurt them . but as long as i bear my family’s name , i can never guarantee that . so it’s better when they are not born at all . ❜
draco wasn’t even sure if he would live through this war, let alone live to see his CHILD be born. he had never put too much thought into having a kid, he remembers his family talking, saying how happy they were that they had a son, that way he can carry on the malfoy name. ❛ my family would be more than DISAPPOINTED if i was to have a daughter, though, i can see why. forgetting the fact that women tend to change their last names; they grow up to hate their fathers. ❜ he rolled his eyes, looking back over at hans. although the male in front of him was a muggle born, he had such talent&charisma, that one could only think that he was a pureblood, which is why draco befriended him a long time ago. ❛ you’re thinking too much into this. ❜
this wasn’t his ideal conversation, talking about what life was going to be like when he had KIDS. he wasn’t even sure if he liked kids, but any time he met them, they seemed to be obsessed with draco. ❛ they don’t have to be just like your family, you’re what, thirteenth in line? it’s not like they are ever going to be on the throne, so what is the point? however, i do see where you are coming from, seeing as you are arranged to be married. that is what happened with my mother & father, you can see what happened to them. ❜ they loved each other, it was something that he knew. but in the bigger picture, it isn’t bliss. they often argue, fight, threaten each other with their wands; there isn’t really even pictures, probably why the house is so dull. the only picture they have is a family portrait from when draco was NINE, so it’s a tad bit outdated.
❛ i suppose that talking about our offspring is not what you wanted to do, sorry about that hans. ❜ he didn’t know where the sorry was coming from, considering draco had always LIKED to push other peoples buttons. however, when it comes to someone that he considers a friend, he would think that he should lay off on his words. it’s not that he fears people leaving him, he just fears being left alone. to begin with, he didn’t have many friends, so he liked to consider hans a good one. ❛ & if the dark lord loses? would you have kids then? it would be a SAFE environment with potter running around still. ❜
in any other situation, draco would have taken that advice &left, but for some reason, his feet didn’t move. he was trying to tell himself that he didn’t want to be around someone that he ADMIRED, someone that he related to in many ways. he tried to tell himself those things, & when he showed up at cedric’s dorm, he caught him at a bad time. he didn’t know what the situation was, but there was a moment where the facade that he had was gone, but it went right back up, & draco knew. so he looked at him, & just said––– ❛ it’s okay. ❜ he never understood where this sudden KINDNESS was coming from, probably from hanging out with HIM for too long. but he knew this situation, where you work so hard pleasing everyone& trying to make people happy, that you forget to do that for yourself.
he had spent his time listening to cedric rant, no matter how awkward he felt in this situation. there had been a few awkward pats on the backs, a few awkward;there there’s, & some awkward comments about how he needed to stop lying to himself. but that was when the taller male spoke to him, & draco frowned, furrowing his eyebrows. he didn’t truly consider cedric a FRIEND, because he couldn’t imagine a person wanting to be friends with draco malfoy, but for some reason, he didn’t want to leave. ❛ & when have i ever listened to you? ❜ he asked him, crossing his arms over his chest. ❛ did you ever think that maybe i want to not leave you? i mean, what else am i supposed to do on a tuesday night?study? ❜ he scoffed, glancing away from him, staring at his feet which were hanging over the edge of his bed. ❛ i had to force the password out of a hufflepuff to find you. i was going to ask if you wanted to do this PRANK, but, my plans changed––– because of you, you dumbass. ❜ he was trying his hardest to be nice, & he knew that cedric was nicer than he could ever be. ❛ i would assume that we aren’t friends, but, i’m not the worst person alive, contrary to popular belief. so no, i’m not going to leave you. ❜
❛ thank MERLIN you aren’t a weasley. ❜ after finally meeting sansa, darcy automatically thought that she was a weasley. anyone with red hair makes her think that, and that is why she tends to avoid him. however, hearing the last name, & remembering that she is SLYTHERIN; she was grateful that she wasn’t one. there was something about this girl, something that darcy was already starting to grow on. ignoring the fact that everyone else in this school was a bunch of PATHETIC LOSERS who doesn’t even deserve a glance in the blonde’s direction; she was liking sansa. ❛ well, from one female to another, idon’t want you going around making friends with the wrong sorts. ❜ she smirked over at her, & that was when she stopped, holding out her hand. ❛ making friends with me could do you some good, stark. ❜
“Hold my hand.” hold it damn it malfoy - bodrecur-blog
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❛ hold your–– what? ❜ he made a face, looking at cedric to see if he was serious;he was. ❛ we’re in PUBLIC, i’m not going to hold your hand! not like i would do it in private either. ❜ it wasn’t like he was AGAINST that lifestyle, he just wasn’t wanting to touch cedric diggory, hell, he didn’t touch anyone anyways. ❛ what are you even talking about, my hands? i . . . ❜ he looked down, seeing that his hands were shaking slightly. it was just something that they always tended to do, espesially when he was cold. he looked at him and shook his head, scoffing for a moment. ❛ you know what? fine, if it makes you happy. ❜ he spat, reaching over & taking his hand, holding it up for him to see that he was holding it. automatically, draco’s hand was warm, they had slowly started to stop shaking, but he quickly let go. ❛ you happy? better not be said in the daily prophet that cedric diggory has a BOYFRIEND. ❜
❛ i reckon it’s the westergärd in me . i hear my pureblooded ancestors were quite the wizards while they’re alive . not shocking — westergärds are lions , after all . or at least , that’s what father says . we do nothing but dominate . ❜ but no . not really . it’s not just in his blood . hans is efficient and smart , and he’s more than glad that draco is willing to see his worth . it’s strange , of course , to hear such a compliment — a genuine one at that — but flattered , nevertheless . he can’t show it though . nor can he take all of the credit . his body is not his own — it’s always been somebody else’s : his family’s name , his father’s . if a compliment should be given to him , it’s never because of something he does . it’s something his father helps in creating .
he’s about to spew his compliment back at draco , mentioning how he knows the other is always second before the granger child in his class , before the hint of lie stops and reels hans’ attention in . of course not , draco says . translation : he is terrified . ❛ perhaps i would . i’d hate fighting a cause in which i have no choice in choosing sides . there’s too many at stakes , i think . at least when you choose the path yourself … then whatever you’re to do next is what you’ve mentally prepared for , right ? at least you chose it . ❜ but when you don’t — if father right now , strode in , and demanded hans to will his mind and body to the dark lord’s fight : hans would be miserable . another creature he has to obey and kneel . he wonders if draco feels the same . ❛ i’m starting to get the idea fathers all around are not the ideal parental figures . i don’t think i’ll have a child of my own . i wouldn’t … i wouldn’t wish to become another version of father . ❜
the conversation was starting to BORE him, but, he didn’t want to stop talking to hans. he didn’t know what it was about him, & what made them seem so SIMILAR. whatever it was, draco liked it, and he wanted to keep it. he wasn’t going to go into a long speech about how everything in his life leaves him, but honestly, a lot of FRIENDS do. ❛ take credit for yourself some time. ❜ he commented, pursing his lips for a moment before glancing at his hands, seeing that they were clasped to stop them from shaking. he wasn’t nervous, he wasn’t scared, but yet that’s all they did. ❛ i guess you are right in a way, but i didn’t have a choice. i wanted to be a death eater, so that just HELPED along the way. but when it comes down to it––– i would be standing on their side no matter what happens. ❜ & that wasn’t what he wanted anymore.
everything had been slowly eating him alive, & he couldn’t even sleep anymore. he sighed to himself, but stopped, hearing the words that hans let out. ❛ that’s stupid, ❜ he commented, letting out a light chuckle as he looked back up at him. ❛ i mean, i’m not claiming to be a father figure or anything like that. but if you are to ever be anything more than just a SHADOW, or something that might have been, you have to be better. that starts with being a better father, & by doing that you actually have to be one. didn’t you say that you took care of your nieces or whatever? ❜
❛on a scale of one to ten… how illegal do you think doing this is?❜ - ofherage-archived
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❛ that’s a STUPID question, you know that there isn’t a limit to things like this. ❜ he smirked gently at her, glancing up from his paper for a second. if he was being totally honest, he wasn’t listening to her, & that obviously was not a great thing. however, when he heard her question, that caught his attention right away. ❛ i’m going to be honest with you granger, i didn’t even KNOW that you were talking to me. so i’m just going to tell you one thing––– if it involves harm to a professor or fire, then it’s probably an eight which would most likely get you expelled. the only thing that you have to do is NOT get caught. which will be a tad bit hard for you, considering you’re pretty LOUD. ❜ he reminded her, glancing down at the already finished essay that was in front of him. ❛ just find me later if you need help, i may hate mudbloods, but you had me at ILLEGAL. ❜
❛okay, but, consider this: i don’t care. i’m gonna do it.❜ - bodrecur-blog
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❛ okay, but, consider this: i want to help you. ❜ he stared at cedric with a mischievous smile, arms crossed over his chest. whatever cedric was planning on doing, draco wanted to be apart of it. he happened to LIKE creating havoc, it was just apart of his personality. ❛ i know our relationship is a tad bit rocky, but that is just something that we can get through, right? i mean, you’re good for one thing; everyone LOVES you, they won’t think that you’re doing anything wrong. maybe you aren’t just a pretty face. ❜ he said to him, getting more & more excited with each thought that was going through his mind, curious as to what cedric could even possibly be doing. ❛ i know when i said that you SHOULDN’T do it, but that was when you told me that didn’t care. so now, because i’m a great person, i want to help you with it. come on, i know magic in YOUR year, let me help. ❜
